So after 3 failed attempts, a bit of frustration, a feeling of hopelessness setting in, and a failed trust in the good folks at Hickam AFB, I have now developed a fear of flying. Not in the natural sense of speaking, as I rarely ever do, but this… in explanation:
I woke up one morning and the only thing I could see was a grey mist setting over what seemed to had been a radiant, powerful purple night sky. I quietly finished packing up my things neatly; my shirts in show-room-like squares, condenser microphone in case, small number of fitted caps and headwear. I added enough socks, underwear, and tees to feel comfortable. In another bag I placed my Nike Dunks in neat rows where the toes altered; the matching shoe upside down as if it were in a shoe box, sole to the ground. In my carry-on; MPC and some flash cards, audio interface, and notebook.
I walked without interruption to the door after dressing in plain dark clothes, turning the knob. I’m leaving on a jet plane. I don’t know if I want to come back again. In my head I changed the words to add some sort of appeasement. My keys jingled at my side, hanging from my left-side’s belt loop. Venturing to my car, head hung low from the way life had treated me, my thoughts lingered between possible car accident and Madison Square Garden snakes. Various hues of emotion; I’m hooked to this tune and when they aint playing it right I’m the grouchy dude in the corner of a dimly lit bar. Short-story short my keys hit the ignition, turned and the roar from the engine reminded me of the Africa I imagined. Road signs, road signs… slow down. Road signs. Ah, finally; my exit.
I left the car unlocked leaving the keys under the driver’s side floor mat; registration and insurance in the passenger side visor. If somebody stole this car, they’d get pulled over, arrested… and I’d hoped for a high-speed chase or something to add to the home videos. To the terminal, baggage in-hand… this couldn’t be the end of the world…
to be continued…
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