Hoping that those words would invoke some sort of inspirational mood. Instead I feel almost nothing. Although its good to see the people you came up with, one has to wonder where the time went and why the growth didn’t go with it. (or come) So many of my old peeps are exactly where they were when I left home four years ago. I’m not going to say I’m some great person or that I’m better than my peers, but my last four years, speaking on growth solely, has been awesome. I’ve expanded my thought process, found my niche, dug up some old emotions and turned those feelings into art. I’ve been a well of desire for new experiences… but after the hype of “Man, I haven’t seen you in years,” wears off, we are back in my high school cafeteria… and I’m still being looked at strangely for being different. Except this time, so should my friends.

My cousin is cutting hair, I got some new nieces (though no kids of my own…), my sister is doing well, girls I used to like… well… I won’t go there. I was jonzin’ for this one sister back in the day… so far we’ve come from there though. I saw some familiar faces, but I didn’t remember names. I bought a cardigan to compliment my “Mr. Rogers” mood, which went over well with the ladies I might add. Some of the outings were interesting, some involved alcohol, others… should’ve. (smirking) Three days left, and I didn’t get to see the one person I wanted to see and the reason I got see everyone else I saw. So in that lies a certain disappointment. However, I was informed that I would be PCSing from the Hawaii area later this year to Kentucky. I’m excited about the change. Change can always be positive, if you go into it with the right outlook. I don’t feel like it’ll stop anything I’m doing or working toward simply because I’m sitting in a car blogging on my MacBook on 8th and Barber St. next to some old building which looks abandoned, but for some reason is secured by the good folks at ADT. So, because the last few months have been a low point for me from a personal aspect, I’m going into everything with a clear mind, and taking it for what it is; one day at a time – the way I should’ve from the jump – however, we live and we learn.

I love home, but I’m so ready to get back to my everyday hustle and hubbub. I’m going to miss my family, but who knows, maybe I’ll be back to visit for a few days later this year, before I do the Kentucky thing. And maybe I won’t. Only God knows.

NOTE:
• All good things must end. Well at least people say that. I don’t think they have to. We just have to focus on how to keep them good, whether it’s relationships or something as simple as a bowl of rice.

SHOUTS:
• Grip H a true big brother.
• Dan Poh I talk to you one way or another more than I do some of my family. You always have some positive words to say. We gone build some art brother, soon.
• April & Christie My inspiration, my heart, my friends. Not a lot of people can love others through their mess; you’ve both manage to look through my situation and find the person I am and pull me out of what I was going through.